2021.10.18 18:44 snodgrass2413 40 [M4F] Chicago - More Than This
“As free as the wind And hopefully learning Why the sea on the tide Has no way of turning...”
I hope, I believe, that I’m talking to you. You, who opened this post because you know you feel a hunger inside. The hunger that maybe can’t be sated...you feel it as I do, and maybe this connection will bring relief.
You feel this feeling of precipice. This danger, this anxiety. Maybe you, like me, have someone present in your day-to-day, a companion, a lover, a spouse. Maybe you are unhappy there, and the emptiness of what you lack growls in your belly and seeks to feed. Maybe, like me, you are happy there, but still, inexplicably, it’s not enough...and you fear it will never be...but there is a wild, cornered hunger in you that you have tried to contain, and either you’ve given up, or made your peace with it, or it has overtaken you and you’re on the verge of giving in. Or maybe you have no one else, but the need inside you is growing and you don’t know where it will take you without some sort of satisfaction.
It doesn’t matter to me which describes you. I seek the hunger in you, the one that won’t be quelled, perhaps especially the one that might never be fully put down. I hunger too, and I need your hunger, your attention, your rawness, your fears and passions and joys and compulsions. Let us find each other and make a safe harbor from the danger. Like the burning bush, let’s be engulfed but not burned away. Let’s consume without destroying. Let’s find a way, together, to feed the hunger and let it grow without destroying ourselves.
I’m educated (graduate degree). I don’t mind if you’re not educated, but I do look for intelligence. Wit and humor are powerful for me. But also playfulness…I’m fun, with a sense of humor, and I enjoy people who enjoy banter.
As deceitful as I might be in everyday life, here I am raw and honest, and I’d love it if you can be raw and honest with me. Nothing feeds my hunger like the naked sharing of souls, even (especially) at their darkest.
I am not looking to ruin you, and I don’t wish to be ruined. I believe we can lay ourselves bare to one another without destruction, and it might even help us thrive.
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2021.10.18 18:44 Trufflebooth Theo Kidd - Unorthodox (Official Audio) [Indie/Funk/Folk]
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2021.10.18 18:44 Faction_Chief @USATODAY: In celebration of the 10th anniversary of the Martin Luther King Jr. memorial in Washington, D.C., opening to the public, the foundation behind the monument is hosting two events this week in the capital city. https://t.co/qKE6ayCJvc
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2021.10.18 18:44 Lunatixtheguide Death loop bug!
2021.10.18 18:44 Felukah Always make sure to take a snapshot of your system before possible disasters...
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2021.10.18 18:44 the_DCM 1 Semester Break after Withdrawal
I withdrew a class this semester and got a "W". Could I take a semester off for next semester and return in the summer? Would this affect anything since I got a mark, so basically it's not 2 consecutive semesters off? Thank!
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2021.10.18 18:44 templepark My bike was stolen in Bristol - but I shouldn’t be surprised
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2021.10.18 18:44 TransportationOk1711 Hazal Kaya upcoming new series #misafir_oasis
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2021.10.18 18:44 dreamer_boy_ is there a limit to how many piggy banks/safes/defenders forges/void vaults can be stored inside each other?
im doing a small project that relates to how strong the terrarian actually is. my question now is, is there a hardcoded limit as to how many personal storage items can be stored inside of each other? e.g a named binary tag depth limit, or integer overflow?
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2021.10.18 18:44 Kaesv04 [USA-WA] [H] RX 480 4gb [W] Paypal, local cash, NVME ssd
A decent card for 1080p. Used for a mining rig for about three months, then was sitting around doing nothing for about a month. Everything works great. It was undervolted and ran at around 65 degrees.
Looking for 215 shipped, 200 local. Also looking for an SSD to replace my data drive. If you've got a decent one then we can do ssd+cash for the 480. Zip is 98335
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2021.10.18 18:44 marebabyy I am scared I have cirrhosis/liver disease.
Hello, I have been having major health anxiety lately. I've always struggled off and on with it for a long time.. I just turned 27 years old. I have not been the best on my body over the past 10 years. I went too the doctor earlier this year in April & she told me my liver enzymes were slightly elevated and she wanted to re test me in May. Well later on in April I ended up going too the hospital for stomach pain in my right side ( which I've had off and on for years, doctors blamed gerd and cyst on my ovary) . Anyways, they did my enzymes & an ultrasound & he told me my enzymes were slightly elevated but that could be due too poor diet, weight gain, ect.. my ultrasound came back good... I never ended up getting my enzymes re tested again... fast forward too the end of July I started having stomach pains off & on, and kind of a fullness feeling & dull pains, along with right abdomen pains, sometimes stabbing. And some weird bubbling around where my liver is, never had that before. I thought it was constipation & gas bc I was taking a supplement that can cause that...that went away after about a week...then in the beginning of Sept I got sick with covid. Had a fever of 100.3, muscle aches, pains, congestion, headache. I took children's tylenol for pain. I started noticing my stool was getting lighter, (could if been before & I just wasn't hyper aware) also I noticed my pee was darker. (Not sure if I drank enough fluids or not). I eventually recovered from covid & was starting too feel a bit better except I was tired a lot, I'd get sleep & still be tired no energy. Fast forward too Sept 25th my birthday for some stupid reason I thought it was okay too party. I drank way too much that day, & the next day I woke up took an adderall hungover & chugged a redbull ( Not the smartest idea ik) & I had a major panic attack itleast I hope. I developed a cough the day after and it lasted about a week.. And now I'm convinced I'm dying, I've started being hyper aware of my body. Noticed my blue veins were starting too show more, I can see them on my legs, chest, wrists, underarms. & New tiny ones were showing up that weren't there before. My heart rate was lower, Loss of appetite. Pee is darker, mainly in the morning, stool changes. I've lost almost 5 pounds in the last 3 weeks. I feel like my skin is paler then before or yellowish but people tell me it's not, I've had itching, been thirsty sometimes, I feel like my muscles are getting weaker, my legs have been having weird twitching, spasms, and my feet have been very cold. I think my nails are turning pale. My face has been breaking out. ( I've been wondering if I could've has ascites back when my stomach hurt a lot and didn't know ) ( would covid of caused me too end of end the hospital if my liver was that bad?) I know I may sound crazy, but nobody but me knows what damage I've done too my body. I'm officially sober from alcohol for 20 day now since I had too start over..... I'm scared to go to the hospital bc I feel impending doom and fear of the fact that I may be dying. I want too know if anyone has had this fear or has had/has liver disease/cirrhosis. How did you know? How did you feel? Or just any thoughts or opinions anyone has would be nice. 😭😢😥
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2021.10.18 18:44 stayrobble Katiana Kay looks so lewd while sucking on a cock BJ skill
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2021.10.18 18:44 TheFlyingMarlboro [Demovsky] Here an injury, there an injury, almost everywhere an injury for Packers
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2021.10.18 18:44 speedingbluejay Anyone else used to make lists of all the things you needed to change about yourself to get people to like you/not abandon you?
Lmao I did this like all the time, I used to make these detailed lists of all the things i did that supposedly annoyed people (ex “talking too much about myself” or “being too loud” or “asking people to hang out after they ignored me the first time” (???)) so i could change those things and get people to actually like me. This also stems back to like 5th grade because that’s the first time i remember actively trying to change/hide aspects of myself because I noticed all my peers had like a “BFF” so i was trying to get my closest friend to value me like that. And she was really mean to me and aways teased me for like everything i did so i was basically like “okay so i gotta make myself into a person she’d actually like and want to be friends with” cause I thought I was this inherently weird, defective, inferior human being. Did anyone else do this kinda thing??
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2021.10.18 18:44 anttiiiiiii LBN-Gaming Community
We hope you are all doing well so far. We, the LBN community, are back after a short break. And we would like to welcome you to our servers and have fun with you and get to know each other. We don't care how well you play we're looking for fun. We currently have a Silent and an etpro server where we spend certain evenings and have fun. We also have a Trickjump Server as well as a Hide N Seek and an Infected Server for people who are looking for a change.
Our servers: 18.104.22.168:27960 Silent 22.214.171.124:27963 Etpro 126.96.36.199:27962 trick jump 188.8.131.52:27968 Silent Only Headshot
You can find more information in our Community Discord. We have a lot of fun there and exchange ideas or help each other.
Our Discord: https://discord.gg/ypJ8FtuffU
Or visit our Homepage. https://forum.lbngamingcommunity.net/ We look forward to you.
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2021.10.18 18:44 Nathan-DarkStrife Pirates life for me shanty does not work, others do.
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2021.10.18 18:44 __vices Water soluble edibles?
Hi Ents, im usually just a flower person, but im trying to give my lungs a break so I’ve been trying various edibles. Im wondering if anyone is familiar with water soluble edibles or know where to get them? I believe im one of the unfortunate few whose liver doesn’t convert edibles properly.
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2021.10.18 18:44 Happyhopsasa Bitcoin Gold
2021.10.18 18:44 Sure-Diver7592 19F really stressed out and feeling anxious and directionless
I am feeling pretty anxious and sad rn i just wish to talk to someone who'll listen to me and empathize. Its really tough to deal w it all by myself. A call will be appreciated and i also might do some trauma dump. If that's okay w you please dm and thank you :)
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2021.10.18 18:44 Redditpernya Well, since everyone else is doing it...
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2021.10.18 18:44 Qaraktur1 Cartel Boss/ Break out.
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2021.10.18 18:44 Aidan_1232 This naked monkey is enough to convince you to buy vitamins for kids
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2021.10.18 18:44 jespassintime Just need some virtual hugs
Recently, I’d gotten to the point of having pretty good earned security despite a truly terrible last few years. Earlier this year, I met a guy with whom everything clicked, and it seemed like I was making a good choice in potential partner for the first time. He was attentive and seemed to genuinely feel the same way I did about him. We had so much in common and chemistry on top of all that. I thought the communication was good, too. I trusted him and let him close to me in so many ways. Then, one day he full on ghosted me out of nowhere. Like no communication about what was happening and why. Fast forward a few months, and I see I can view his Instagram profile again (he had removed me and set it to private). I had a hard moment the other day, and it made me really want to see if I could get closure as to why. So I looked, and it’s no longer private, and he’s posting about his amazing new girlfriend. Amazing because she’s accomplished things I want to accomplish but have had a hard time doing because of the lack of support and some hard life stuff I’ve had to deal with.
I feel awful. I feel all my earned security draining away. He told me so many times how great I am, but I guess not good enough.
We talk about choosing partners wisely and noticing red flags and toxic behavior as part of earned security, but what do you do when everything seems right, but then someone drops you like you’re nothing in one of the most disrespectful and hurtful ways possible? This especially hurts because I sincerely would have liked to have stayed friends with him if he’d been honest with me and ended things in an actual adult manner.
I have my closure now, but I feel like I can’t trust anyone now, something I’ve worked so hard to overcome.
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2021.10.18 18:44 Oinkus42069 Every. Single. Time.
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2021.10.18 18:44 RMorenoart [For Hire] RPG Characters Commissions Open!
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